Jacob - 30

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            As I sat down at the edge of the bench, not knowing what to do, or how everything works, I found you. Of course, since you were at the front talking and leading the group. I was new at everything, it was my first time and I don't know anyone. It just that I was at that seat and Group 8 assembles there. I was confused, but then I just listen. I sat there, you were at front, and I guess when our eyes met, you probably thinks of who I am since I am a stranger but then your eyes smile. I guess, it is to welcome me. 

            At first, I didn't expect that you were so young. You lead the group with leadership and with authority. But then, somehow, our first impression is sometimes wrong. You're 19 and that's a three years gap. It takes a short time to processed that since as I observed you, I saw your features that correlates with your age. You are young but my eyes can't see that. You act older than your age and because of that, I can't treat you as someone who is younger than me. I'm just a normal person too. 

                

10/01/2024

Praise God I was able to help at the kitchen today along with Ate Jez. As I went home riding a jeep, as I observed my hands, I told God, "Thank you Lord for the this hands that I was able to help others". It is an opportunity for me to help, so I help. I hope God is pleased. 

Aside from that, I don't know if I am just delusional or something but as I observed, he really tries to call me by my first name without using the "ate". Maybe because I told him last Saturday not to call me that. He struggles right now though. But thank you for trying. You are really that kind of person that give importance to the people around you. 

Hulog na jd ko nimo? Sad :<. I went here in Cebu trying to heal from Dennis. I was hurt, I was at pain. I accepted the fact that Dennis belongs to someone else. I liked Dennis, a lot, but then we just can't force things that is not for us. I went here, praying nga if God would allow, wala lang gyuy tawo usa nga musud sa akong kasing kasing but then, you came. I wouldn't say nga giguba nimo ang akong plano kay you are a big blessing to me. Ambot but God works in mysterious way jd ui kay basin ikaw sab ang gamiton sa Ginoo for me to learn something in this current life. 

Bitaw ganiha ba, how cute man ui. Kabalo jd kong kaulion na jd ka, pero as you keep mentioning sa remaing oras, can't help but to look at you ug magkatawa. Mukatawa man sab ka. Wa koy sure pero mag abot ba ang atong mata? I don't know. Sa kan-anan, gaabot ba atong mata? Mura, kausa. Kyuti jd kang bataa ka ui. HAHAHA. 

Wa jd koy pag-asa nimo no? HAHAHA. First palang, murag gisagpa na dayun sa kamatuoran ba nga taman ra jd kog lantaw nimo sa layo. Pero sige lang kay daghan sab kog nakat unan nimo. Mahimo jd kang permanent person in my memory bisag temporary person raka sa akong kinabuhi. Pero, I'll be praying for you, that is for sure. 

Probably, if magkita ta puhon, ambot pansinon ba ko nimo, pero unta. Continue to be a blessing, continue to grow in grace. Basin puhon, if itugot sa Ginoo, I will be able to ask the questions I already form inside my mind. Unta, before I go home, I can hear you sing nga imo rang tingog ako madungggan. 

Lord, thank you for his life. Thank you for letting me meet him. I know everything has a reason and someday, I can find the meaning why you allowed us to meet, and why I began to like him. Atong Sunday, nadunggan jd ko nimo ato ba nga ning ingon kog "I love him, Lord", kay matured jd siya spritually Lord.  Thank you jd kaayo, Lord Jesus. 

Tomorrow, I'll write something nasab guru hehe. Ciao!